The Prophet ﷺ said, "He who believes in Allah and the Last Day must either speak good or remain silent."
[Muslim].
Earlier in my days, when I was still a young kid, I would come to my mother whenever I have any problems and rant to her. Yes, I am a great "ranter" since I was a cute kid. I would tell her how disappointed I was with people.
But as time passed, I tend to see things differently and I began to not express what I feel as what I've done in the past. Adulting? I don't know...
I started to bottle up emotions because I realized, people do not actually matter about what I feel, what I am experiencing. Well, what can I say, maybe I am never good enough? For the days I sacrificed to soothe my friends' heart, maybe I failed? Maybe I did not give my all? Maybe sleeping at 2 a.m. is not enough to help them to figure out their life? Maybe I should drive in the middle of the night and calm them? I don't know... And for what I've done to certain people in my life, I am stupid to expect for them to at least do the same to me. To actually ask me what happened, why am I sad? To the very least try to not hurt my feelings with their actions and words.
There's nothing much I want to tell here today. It is just, I beg you, people, to not say anything if you do not have anything good to say. A proverb said "a tongue is mightier than a sword", you can kill a person without them bleeding physically. Try to not jump into judgment and make an assumption on things before you really know what is actually going on. As how I try to really understand you, I hope you do the same.
You ain't wearing a person's shoes, you can really never know what is he experiencing. And with you acting like you know what is really going on, it really worsens things up. Sorry if any of this actually hurt anyone who by chance read this, but, I am tired to tell people I am okay because they expect me to be so. I know, it is okay to be not okay, but I guess, people are not okay with a Syahmina to be not okay. I guess?
May Allah bless every single soul reading this. I pray that Allah will always save you from hardship and sadness :)
